Recovering…….. again

Day 4 post ankle surgery and I’m doing well.

Ankle feels very, very good actually. Only pain occurs when I accidentally end up putting weight on it.

Emotionally I feel very hopeful……. I know all of this is in Her hands.

Ryan’s been terrific – he makes a GREAT turkey breast sandwich.

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UPDATE Nov 23, 2013

My cast came off November 19. What a wonderful relief to bathe normally again!

I have a walking air boot I’m to wear for four weeks and then a brace for another three weeks.

I’ve also lost 14 pounds. Lots more to go but I’ll get there.

Since I’ve been laid off, I can’t afford the COBRA coverage now so I’ll be uninsured until I can get through the error code I received on the wahealthplanfinder.org application I submitted for Obamacare coverage.

Hopefully I’ll find a new job soon and will have health coverage there. Prayers for that please.

All of this is in God – I see it in so many ways. I’m just going with the flow and taking it day-by-day.

To my former coworkers in 2013

First, I miss all of you very much! It feels like a part of me has been abruptly chopped off. Each and every one of you taught me so much about both myself, and Life. I’m grateful our paths crossed.

After a few days spent in shock and grieving, I am beginning to feel like my old self again.

Losing one’s job means losing health coverage so …………….

I’ve been spending quite a bit of time trying to get my son’s Medicaid and Medicare coverage secured. That’s been my biggest worry. He’s been doing so well lately and it would be devastating to have him go without his seizure medications and risk sliding back to the tragic life he had a couple of years ago. I’m so grateful for the knowledge I’ve gained in my career that I can help him through this.

I’m also taking care of all of my health needs this month as well.

During my tenure, I had this prayer up on my cubicle wall. It was something I read to myself every single day, and incorporated in my email signature. Everything happens for a reason; I’ve always known that. I also know something wonderful is in store for me once my ankle surgery heals and I’m very excited for the future. Thank you again for sharing this part of my path.

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I AM A SURVIVOR

“There’s been a reorganization and your position has been eliminated.”

With those words, my life changed dramatically (again) today.  The last time anything like this happened was in 1989 when my husband moved out.

After feeling surrounded and engulfed with overwhelming darkness all day, I spoke with Claudia and by the time we finished speaking, I felt an overwhelming sense of awareness and light.

I AM A SURVIVOR

I will not judge myself in any way.

I am going to be fine and I’m going to come through this.

It is time for me to let go of the past and come out in a better place professionally.

Those who need help navigating our system need me and I WILL be there for them.

For quite some time now, I’ve known I needed to do something more than just work for a health insurance company.  I’ve seen first hand the incredible difficulty people have navigating our health system.  I’ve personally experienced this difficulty time and time again – the most recent last week when I had to explain to Ryan’s new Medicare plan how to handle my request for an appeal for coverage of his medications.

Today, Wednesday, my position was eliminated and I’m faced with a wonderful opportunity to find my true destiny.

This is going to be fun.

Fall Equinox and Life Lessons abound

Quite often lately I find myself wondering what I’m doing with my life. I find it very, very hard to engage with anyone who doesn’t take things seriously.

And by things I mean everything that most don’t want to talk about; poverty, inequality, war etc.

Corruption in our courts who refuse to hold the banks and Wall Street accountable for fraud committed against homeowners.

Corruption in our President who promised change and simply continued the war mongering and drone killing of innocent human beings – including uncharged American citizens.

Greed run amok resulting in plutocrats running this oligarchy and no hope for my sons or their future children (if they choose to go that route).

More often than not I feel like I’m on a prison planet designed for purging darkness from the human soul.

As it stands today, the only way I will leave anything of monetary value for my sons is if I die while I’m working and have continued to pay my life insurance premiums (which today are almost $200 per paycheck). The premiums will go up substantially as I age and I’m aging quickly.

Retirement??? Please……. that’s a dream for another lifetime.

Happy Fall Equinox!

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