All relationships require nurturing to sustain, and grow.
When someone decides they no longer want to engage, it’s time to let go.
Does that mean it is easy? No.
It is always devastating to lose the companionship and support of someone you’ve cared for deeply.
But it is what it is. You can’t force someone to sustain friendship.
This will take some time to absorb.
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Posted by Chris Lockett on Friday, January 8, 2016
My Vedic Astrology chart indicated I would be challenged until 2019. Let’s sum up some of the recent challenges, just for fun.
2013 – Oct 2nd, laid off job (first time in my long work life!)
2014 – February 7th, Vincent John Salvati, my one and only nephew died of an accidental overdose in February.
2014 – February 14th, started a new job – such a blessing to be able to pay the mortgage on time now.
2014 – May 22nd, Regina Connolly Salvati, my sister and last remaining family-of-origin member died of liver failure after a life-long battle with alcoholism and addiction.
2014 – May 23rd, my 60th birthday. And for the first time ever, I felt very, very old.
2015 – Summer, we lost two pugs. Our healthiest pug Frodo had a massive stroke and had to be euthanized. A month later, my oldest pug Xena had to be euthanized.
2015 – September, realized that my life-long best friend wasn’t much interested in really staying connected. Also realized that someone I thought was a deep and abiding friend didn’t really need my friendship once she married into money.
2015 – October, wrapped up a very long and expensive probate for my sister’s estates (I represented myself to save money).
2015 – November, rear-ended (minor damage) by someone on the way to work. Wanting to trust the world, I believed him when he said he’d pay for the repair so I didn’t call the police at the time of the accident and just exchanged information. He’s no longer returning my phone calls or text messages now that my car is fixed and I need him to pay the $625.
2015 – December, a fascist blowhard (aka D T) is leading the Republicans for the nomination for President; and a lying, corporate tool and war-monger (aka HRC) is leading the Democrats. I’ve donated to Bernie Sanders campaign and am doing everything I can to help him win the Democratic nomination. But I need a plan B. I wonder if Canada will take a political refugee from the USA?
2015 – December, painful realization that no matter how hard I try, I cannot make a family out of individuals who have no desire to live near me, or be part of a family. There are so many other aspects to this painful realization, but I’ll leave it at that.
2016 – January 1st, I realize for the first time that I’ve spent my life waiting for ‘someday’ to occur. Now I’m close to 61 years old and finally understand that ‘someday’ is never going to come.
In June I’m taking my sons to visit Vincent and Regina’s graves at Most Holy Redeemer Cemetary near Albany, New York.
We will then see my cousin Suzanne in Connecticut before heading off for almost four weeks exploring Ireland, Scotland, England, Italy and Greece.
I’m praying the Universe gives me a reprieve in 2016.
Here’s the lawsuit filed today by the Bernie Sanders campaign against the corrupt Democratic National Committee (DNC).
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Posted by Media Matters for America on Tuesday, December 8, 2015
On this Thanksgiving, I’m most grateful for:
* My health. I feel great and am not in need of any surgery (that I’m aware of).
* My sons. Both have grown into extraordinary young men and, while I wish they both lived closer to me, I’m very proud of each for the choices they make every day.
* My job. Layoffs are taking place and I’ve never felt so anxious, but I won’t let fear rule me.
* My awareness. I see the world clearly and for that, I’m deeply grateful.
* My depth of Spirit and abiding Love for all. It carries me more often than not lately.
* Bernie Sanders. He’s a proven progressive who can move this declining nation forward.
* My family of origin. My Dad-John Joseph Connolly, taught me commitment and responsibility. My mom gave me a capacity for Love that runs deep. My sister-Regina-taught me how wounded a Soul can be. My brother-Kevin-taught me persistence.
* My only nephew Vincent. He helped me learn how hard it is to grow up in a very dysfunctional family.
* My Jr. High school algebra teacher – Dave Sell – he taught me to love myself.
I have so much to be thankful for this year. While I’m all alone this year, I am deeply grateful for everything I have.
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At 61, I find myself absolutely alone.
The friends I trusted have abandoned me.
Layoffs, and rumors of more layoffs at work have left me feeling sick to my stomach with anxiety.
My sons will be with their Dad for Thanksgiving so I’ll be totally alone.
I’ve never, ever felt so alone and scared.