{"id":127,"date":"2005-11-02T21:30:00","date_gmt":"2005-11-03T05:30:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/shawnna.wordpress.com\/2005\/11\/02\/the-chaos-i-created\/"},"modified":"2005-11-02T21:30:00","modified_gmt":"2005-11-03T05:30:00","slug":"the-chaos-i-created","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/shawnna.org\/?p=127","title":{"rendered":"The chaos I created"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>On the home front, I&apos;ve been without a computer for a while now.  I had to have the flooring redone downstairs (it needed it when I bought the house in 1995).  Even though I did the entry\/kitchen floor last year, I see now that the material I used and the installation reflected my inexperience.   Since I had to redo the family room and wanted to use laminate I have two choices; use the same material I used in the kitchen or replace it all.  I found a great contractor on craigslist that did all of the laminate and carpet for less than half the cost Home Depot quoted &#8211; and it is now done with high quality material and reflects a professional installation.   But what it&apos;s meant is that I&apos;ve had to move everything from the family room out so he could put the laminate in and then move everything from the living room\/dining room out so the new carpet could be installed.  It&apos;s going to be wonderful when the house gets put back together &#8211; hopefully this weekend.  But it&apos;s been self-inflicted chaos for the last couple of weeks.  I&apos;m using Matt&apos;s laptop to update this journal.<\/p>\n<p>On the work front, I managed to get in BIG trouble today &#8211; bottom line is I don&apos;t play the political game and I sent a memo to my boss and my bosses boss asking for a change in responsibility such that I can manage the pharmacy component of the Medicare programs I am responsible for.  Our organization has some real fundamental organizational structure problems that make it such that the pharmacy product managers have a direct impact on my products when they make decisions and\/or ignore issues that have a negative impact on my Medicare programs.  The whole political environment is frustrating for me.   I&apos;ve never changed my behavior to make gains politically within any organization &#8211; including my family of origin &#8211; and I can&apos;t imagine changing now that I&apos;m 51 years old.  My boss is extremely political and fearful of taking risks.  The fact that the two of us work together makes it a challenge just given the difference between our professional style.  At least he&apos;s easy to talk to &#8211; even if he is ineffective.  Oh well&#8230;   My motives are pure and in the best interest of our members.  As long as I focus on that, I&apos;ll be OK.   In the meantime, I&apos;m struggling to be effective in an environment that at it&apos;s most fundamental level doesn&apos;t facilitate effectiveness.<\/p>\n<p>Other news &#8211; Mark and Katie called tonight.  Apparently their youngest daughter is having some health challenges that seem to be similar to the health issues we&apos;ve face with Ryan.  We had a very long conversation and I&apos;m going to gather all of the medical records I can for them to look at.  Given the genetic link we feel it would be helpful for them to have an awareness of what Ryan&apos;s gone through so we can be sure their daughter gets the best care possible.  I&apos;m lighting a candle for her and will keep them all in my prayers.  I&apos;m so deeply grateful that we have a good relationship.  Katie is a wonderful mom and I&apos;m blessed that she&apos;s my sons step-mother.  I&apos;ll do whatever I can to help.<\/p>\n<p>That&apos;s it for now.  I&apos;ll try and update more frequently once I get my home life back together.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>On the home front, I&apos;ve been without a computer for a while now. I had to have the flooring redone downstairs (it needed it when I bought the house in 1995). 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