Someone I love told me recently:<\/p>\n
“as life circumstances change, you take that as a person abandoning you. Life changes. People don't necessarily change in regard to you. But you seem to change in regard to them.”<\/p>\n
Upon reading this, my first reaction was to wonder why they would tell me that now? Is it because it is Lent and they felt that I could deal with that kind of input now – as well as all the other stuff I'm dealing with? Then I thought about it……….. and I realized that they couldn't have known all the other crap being tossed my way because I have withdrawn from what was once a very close friendship. So I simply responded to their email with an “Ok”.<\/p>\n
After thinking about it for a while now, I have come to the understanding that:<\/p>\n
Once trust is broken – the wound goes deep, and healing is a life-long process.<\/p>\n
If a soul experiences numerous instances of broken trust, the wound goes deeper and the scar tissue thicker with each broken relationship.<\/p>\n
That is all I'll say about that right now.<\/p>\n
I am facing unemployment soon – and am frightened. We love our house – it is my priority and I will do whatever I can to keep it. My boss is a nice person but she has shown me that she cannot deal with all of this in a professional, compassionate manner. She is sending me very mixed messages – on the one hand, she told me the CFO said they would “take care of me”. On the other hand, she tells me she “thinks I'll be OK”. HR says I have to submit an application and resume for each position I may be interested in – which isn't very supportive at all.<\/p>\n
I wonder what a nervous breakdown feels like?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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