As I prepare myself for tomorrow – I am struck by the feud unfolding amongst a few of Matt's friends. The idea of one's “shadow” or “dark side” has come up and I find myself confronting my own.<\/p>\n
My “shadow” is painful to even contemplate. It has caused considerable emotional pain for those I have loved the most – especially Matt & Ryan.<\/p>\n
I will not go into that any further at the moment. I need more time to consider it.<\/p>\n
Just know that I love Matt & Ryan more than life itself. Anything I have done, or said, that has caused either of them pain is my cross to bare as I know it cannot be undone, or unsaid.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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