{"id":2363,"date":"2012-12-23T20:45:51","date_gmt":"2012-12-24T04:45:51","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/shawnna.org\/?p=2363"},"modified":"2012-12-24T11:21:42","modified_gmt":"2012-12-24T19:21:42","slug":"post-traumatic-stress","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/shawnna.org\/?p=2363","title":{"rendered":"Post Traumatic Stress"},"content":{"rendered":"

Claudia told me yesterday when we chatted on the phone that she thinks I may be suffering from PTSD. <\/p>\n

Interesting theory which I intend to dig further into.<\/p>\n

I do know that ever since Ryan almost died in my arms June 2, 2011, I haven’t been the same.<\/p>\n

I’m hyper-vigilant every second of every minute I’m home. I worry about every sound I hear and constantly ask Ryan if he’s OK. <\/p>\n

When Ryan leaves, I feel incredibly stressful until I know that he arrived at his destination ok. <\/p>\n

When I’m at work, every time my phone rings and it’s Ryan’s phone calling me, my body stiffens and I prepare for bad news. <\/p>\n

I avoid personal relationships – and frankly, find them to be very taxing emotionally. I can’t even find the emotional strength to go to lunch with a co worker. <\/p>\n

It’s just lunch……<\/p>\n

\"th_sigh-1\"<\/a><\/p>\n

I’ve wondered for a while why my life seems to have changed so much. I need to figure out what to do now. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Claudia told me yesterday when we chatted on the phone that she thinks I may be suffering from PTSD. Interesting theory which I intend to dig further into. I do know that ever since Ryan almost died in my arms …<\/span> Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2363","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/shawnna.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2363","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/shawnna.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/shawnna.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shawnna.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shawnna.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2363"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/shawnna.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2363\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2366,"href":"https:\/\/shawnna.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2363\/revisions\/2366"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/shawnna.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2363"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shawnna.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2363"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shawnna.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2363"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}