I’m wondering what happened to me. I know I need to move on professionally. For whatever reason, I haven’t.<\/p>\n
There was a time in my life when I just did what had to be done.<\/p>\n
I left an abusive home at 16. Supported myself until I married at 26. Divorcing at 33, I moved back to CA and reentered the job market after having been out of it for more than 5 years.<\/p>\n
Single, with two very young children, only a few college credits under my belt, I realized very quickly that California wasn’t going to be a good place to raise my sons. So I bought a new car, sold my condo, quit my job and moved to Seattle after having been offered an opportunity to rent a friend’s house.<\/p>\n
Yes – in that order.<\/p>\n
I had no family in Seattle, no job, two very young sons and $12K in the bank. I was absolutely fearless.<\/p>\n
I found a job within 3 months and have moved steadily forward in both professional responsibility and salary in the health care administration and financing industry.<\/p>\n
I have learned so much about our country’s health care ‘system’.<\/p>\n
I have learned more about myself.<\/p>\n
I now find myself in an intense internal struggle.<\/p>\n
The company I work for professes to be committed to the community and to transforming health care – but their actions do not reflect their words.<\/p>\n
How do I reconcile my personal need to make a difference within an environment where the leaders are not focused on their professed Cause? Their egos drive their decisions. There is no long-term strategic thinking or planning.<\/p>\n
So much potential…..<\/p>\n
Why can’t I bring myself to just walk away? I’m positive I could survive financially long enough to find other work.<\/p>\n
What has happened to my courage?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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