Beautiful Dogwood Tree – Beginning Mother’s Day – 2010
So many changes for me in the last year.
Matt lives in Los Angeles and is following his dreams. He sent beautiful roses and a note that touched my Soul. I miss him so much. In a very profound way, this time has shown me what kind of man he is – and I’m deeply proud to be his Mom.
Ryan is working hard at deciding what he wants to do with his life. While he is temporarily off work so his shoulder can mend, he is learning lots of Life Lessons each day – even if he isn’t conscious of it right now. He makes me laugh all the time – and reminds me every day how lucky I am to be his Mom.
Last year, I planted a very young dogwood tree in front of our home. I’ve decided to document her growth. Here is her 2010 photo.

Motherhood is my greatest joy. Blessings to all, always.
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Here is my beautiful Dogwood tree one year later – photo taken June 2011

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Here is my beautiful Dogwood tree one year later – photo taken last week of May 2012

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Here is my beautiful Dogwood tree another year later – photo taken May 12, 2013
It’s been very dry compared to prior years – you can tell by this photo the impact that has had on this young tree.
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Here is my beautiful Dogwood tree two years later – photo taken May 16, 2015. Last year my nephew and my sister died and I failed to remember to take a Mother’s Day photo of it.
With many blessings, this past year has been one of healing for both Ryan and me. Our weather is definitely changing; last summer was the warmest I can remember. And we’ve already had one 80 degree day this year.
It’s been a few years since I updated this and so much has changed. I thought for a while this tree had died because it took so very long to bloom. But it’s now June 13, 2021 and it is finally in full bloom – much later than Mother’s Day. Maybe that’s what climate change is doing to this little tree?


Conscience and our Connectedness
My sense is we’re seeing a fundamental breakdown of our society. The capitalistic house of cards created by those with the most financial wealth is crumbling before our eyes – slowly but surely. Denial of this is understandable. But knowledge is power and paying attention to what is going on around you is important.
This article is a good illustration of the fundamental problem with our economy. The lack of conscience within the individuals running these corporations is the tip of the iceberg. Recognizing that we are all connected and our individual choices impact us all would be a good first step.
Will New Regulations Give Wall Street A Conscience? From Newsweek.com
Legislating a Conscience on Wall Street
From J. P. Morgan to Goldman Sachs’s Lloyd Blankfein, the Street’s sense of social responsibility seems to have nearly evaporated.By Michael Hirsh | Newsweek Web Exclusive
Apr 28, 2010
Lloyd Blankfein doesn’t seem to feel responsible for anything beyond Goldman Sachs’s bottom line. Nor should he, according to the meager mores of Wall Street. Goldman, you see, is a “market maker,” as Blankfein loves to repeat. This absolves the firm of any fiduciary responsibility for the deals it sets up for its clients. Creating “liquidity” in the markets, Blankfein believes, is Goldman’s only social responsibility. At a hearing of the Senate’s Permanent Subcommittee on Investigations on Tuesday, Chairman Carl Levin repeatedly tried to get Blankfein to concede that Goldman was morally wrong to bet on the sly against securities that it had touted as solid investments to its clients. No, no, no, the Goldman CEO demurred, that’s not how the financial system works any more. “There’s been a change in the sociology of the business in the last 10 to 15 years,” Blankfein explained patiently. “Somewhere along the line,” he said, big clients stopped asking investment banks for good advice and started to seek them out only to set up deals for them—merely to underwrite the transactions and be on the other side of them. That forced Goldman to transform itself from a private partnership in the late ’90s into a publicly traded company in order to obtain the big-time capital it needed to create such deals. It also apparently gave Goldman carte blanche to shaft any helpless investor on the other side of those transactions. Liquidity is all. Nothing else matters.
This is why the senators on the committee and Goldman’s finest so often seemed to be talking past each other Tuesday, in a Mars and Venus kind of way. As Sen. Jon Tester put it: “It’s like we’re speaking a different language here.” Sen. Susan Collins asked the former head of Goldman’s mortgage department, Daniel Sparks, whether he felt an obligation to “act in the best interest of your clients,” Sparks refused to say yes. “I had a duty to act in a very straightforward way and very open way with my clients,” he responded. To Sparks it was an obvious distinction: Goldman has an obligation to act mainly in its own best interests, not its clients’. Goldman now exists mainly to supply its clients with products to buy, and during the bubble the riskier (or more high-yielding) they were the better. Caveat emptor. (Never mind that voluminous internal e-mails uncovered by Levin’s committee showed that Goldman wasn’t terribly straightforward or open either; for example, it avoided sophisticated hedge funds as clients because they’d want to take the short side of many bad deals along with Goldman.) What seemed a shocking breach of ethics to Levin, Collins and others in the hearing room was quotidian reality to the Wall Street men.
Click here to find out more!All in all, the hearing was another remarkable window into the long moral decline of Wall Street and banking from the heyday of J. P. Morgan. The bulbous-nosed Morgan was no angel—he was the original “greed is good” guy—but Morgan was the first in a line of great bankers who felt a larger social responsibility to the economy. During the Panic of 1907, Morgan had been the Rock of Wall Street, the man who calmly told the head of the New York Stock Exchange that he dare not close early to prevent panic selling and then called in his fellow bankers and told them they had to pony up money to keep the exchange afloat. Morgan played that role during a time when the best investment bankers on Wall Street underwrote the securities for and dispensed investment counsel to America’s corporate finest. Stock issuance was a closely held right granted to only the most blue-blooded of corporations. He also had a huge stake in the health of the real economy. Morgan was not only virtually a one-man Federal Reserve in his time—the Fed didn’t come into being until five years later—but he actually controlled huge industrial sectors: the railroads, the top three insurance companies, U.S. Steel. In subsequent eras top bankers had also had a sense of responsibility for the overall health of the financial system, people like Lewis Preston of JPMorgan and Walter Wriston of Citibank.
That all began to change as deregulation made investment banking less profitable, and as blue-chip corporations like IBM and General Motors found they didn’t need Wall Street as much as before. Their corporate ratings were often better and they sometimes had their own financing units. They could easily tap the commercial-paper market on their own. So whereas in the old days prestige came to those firms that worked their way up the credit scale to the blue chips, Wall Street’s white-shoe firms were motivated to look for less-creditworthy new clients. That was Michael Milken’s great insight at Drexel Burnham in the 1980s as he began finding ways to issue “junk” bonds for buccaneering entrepreneurs, people who in previous periods would not have warranted a second look from the elite on the Street.
Just as importantly, the product lines in big-time banking began to change. Proprietary trading, once frowned upon in the best firms, became a necessity, as did the assumption of greater risk. And whereas Wall Street banks once had a stake in the loans they made and private partnerships like Goldman onced staked their own capital, the securitization game dissolved any sense of liability that firms had for the success or failure of their products. Everyone thought risk was being dispersed through the bundling and securitizing of loans—now, of course, we know it wasn’t—but what no one noticed was that the sense of responsibility for the system was also being dispersed. The idea of a corporate conscience—at least over preserving system stability—grew so diffuse that it no longer really existed, even as systemic risk began linking everyone up and making even midsized firms too big to fail. So while the consequences of the actions of individual banks were increasing in significance for the entire system, their corporate ethics were shriveling into nothingness. It was a train wreck waiting to happen.
Yet unlike the systemic risk problem, which is endlessly jawboned in Washington today, no one is really talking about the dispersion of responsibility problem.
The result is a horrifying mismatch between Wall Street’s vast power over the economy and its utter lack of conscience. Although Goldman has long been the most prestigious firm on the Street and therefore nominally the heir to the Morgan lineage, it has never matured into that older role. It couldn’t really afford any sense of noblesse oblige about the American economy. On the contrary: Goldman’s corporate ethos is clearly more that of a predator than a protector. Indeed, Goldman became known as the savviest and most prestigious firm on the street in part because it had no scruples about simultaneously betting against products it was selling. One reason for Goldman’s success was that as a firm it developed a sharper and more pervasive hedge-fund mentality before the other investment banks did.
Is there any way to change this now, so that the banks that remain the lifeblood of the U.S. economy are forced to think outside their walls? Yes, but only Washington can do it (as risky a proposition as that is too). It’s clear none of these big banks is going to able to grow a conscience on its own, not with the way the Street is structured today. That is why, along with new rules on capital and leverage and systemic risk, the forthcoming financial reform legislation—currently being held up by a Republican filibuster—should also include tough new rules on disclosure, transparency, and corporate responsibility. It is also why a tough and empowered new Consumer Financial Protection Agency is an absolute necessity. Levin wants a new law that will explicitly make it a conflict of interest for a firm like Goldman not to reveal to clients that it is shorting some new security it is selling. And there’s no reason that can’t happen. As the free-market theorists never tire of telling us, the more information the better, right? It’s something we have to do, because J. P. Morgan ain’t coming back any time soon. Instead we’re stuck with Lloyd Blankfein.
Personal Power
I will never, ever give another human being the power to influence how I feel about me.
I’ve learned to recognize those who manipulate trust for their own benefit. The first step in that learning was recognizing it in myself.

Bill Moyers – Tea Party Organizer is Epitome of Privilege
One of the last truly wise men left in this country – Bill Moyers. Here’s a terrific video for those of you who want more than sound bites.
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The Significant Men of My Life
My Achilles' heel
John F. Kennedy on the US health care system – 1962
48 years ago – yes – almost five decades ago, our President, John F. Kennedy, made the point that our US health care system was well behind Europe’s.
Today’s historic vote on health care is long over due. And in my humblest of opinions, is still a long way away from reflecting a health care system the US should be proud of.
Step-by-step in the US really means generation-by-generation. We truly are in the dark ages in many aspects.
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To see things rightly…..
A dear friend sent this to me today. Bless you, Robin!
Life Lessons coming in fast and furious right now.
Recently I received an email containing pictures which were categorized as double vision. These are striking paintings that appear initially as faces, but upon closer scrutiny are other things, like flowers, people and things of that nature that together create the larger picture. I was first mesmerized by their beauty and then by the creativity that went into creating these illusions.
Being of the mindset that there are lessons and messages that can appear to us throughout our daily activity, I pondered the message stemming from this artistic exposure. Without much soul searching, I grasped the idea that I see things one way and as simple when in fact, my vision is sometimes limited and therefore I miss the beauty or insight that the total picture brings to me. Does this happen to you?
Sometimes our experiences do not involve studying a beautiful painting, but may involve seeing a situation from another person’s position. It could mean perceiving things in a different manner or seeing things with new eyes. It is hard not to be locked into viewing situations or people in our personal and professional lives from a negative perspective. Perhaps we feel hurt, slighted or rejected by those who mean much to us. Perhaps we view their actions as deliberate and designed to hurt us when they are “not doing it to us, they are just doing it.”
We may all struggle to make sense of what goes on around us and strive to understand the lessons that can be gleaned from our experiences. We may get lost in the experience, placing great value on it rather than on the lesson that comes out of that experience. (Keep the lesson, but throw away the experience).
I know that as long as I have a breath left in my body, I will continue to struggle in my attempts to see things rightly. I will continue to strive to give up being handcuffed to a stagnant and erroneous way of seeing the challenging situations in my life. I will need to look at them with double vision-seeing a large picture— while taking the time to study the smaller ones that make up the bigger one.
Ideas don't make us experts. Awareness does.
I received this “Weekly Kabbalah Tune Up” today, just after receiving another hateful email from my very angry, vindictive sister.
I’m always amazed at the Life Lessons that I’m forced to face – and always at the most appropriate time.
Mike McConnell, former Director of National Intelligence, described the principles of how to arrive at good intelligence 17 years ago while serving under Colin Powell.
“I have a rule,” General Powell told him. “As an intelligence officer, your responsibility is to tell me what you know; tell me what you don’t know; then you’re allowed to tell me what you think. But always keep those three things separate. ”
This was a profound concept to me. Most of us take what we think and turn it into what we know.
When we give out information, it’s important to separate it into what we know, what we don’t know, and what we think. Sometimes it’s hard to say what we don’t know. Our egos don’t like us to be in the dark. It takes a very smart, very responsible person to distinguish between these three areas.
We need to know our strengths, weaknesses, and what we think we can do. One reason for botched communication is we don’t separate between these three things. You’ve got to keep them separate from the beginning. Then you’ll be a more valuable leader, follower, and friend.
No matter who is working with you, under you, or above you – as long as you have someone who needs to report to you and/or you to them – be sure to share what’s known, what’s unknown, and what’s perceived. It will help alleviate expectations and allow the flow of communication to be clearer.
Ideas don’t make us experts. Awareness does. The work may seem difficult, but the point is simple. To say you don’t know isn’t always easy. But it can solve the big problems that happen when people make what they think into what they know.












