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Walking my talk

Posted on November 1, 2008 by shawnnaNovember 1, 2008

I recently wrote about learning a lesson for the umpteenth time that what someone does is much more reflective of who they really are, than what they say – or write on a website.

This applies to me too.

I do hope that what I write reflects who I am. I know what I write reflects who I am striving to be.

For those I have hurt emotionally, I sincerely apologize. For those I have hurt spiritually, words can never express the self-loathing I have for doing so.

Self-awareness is the key. How we talk to each other matters. How we treat each other matters too. Especially in this cyber world.

When I find that being around someone causes me to ‘cringe’ with increasing frequency, I know it is time to ‘move on’. This isn’t ‘arrogance’ or a ‘lack of mental capacity’. It is simply self-preservation.

Sometimes the most loving thing we can do for another (and ourselves) is walk away.

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Soul connections and my 2008 trip to California

Posted on October 26, 2008 by shawnnaOctober 26, 2008

Emotionally exhausted from work, the week at the beach was heaven – literally.

Walking on the shore……..   feeling the ocean air and sun on my skin……..  hearing the never ending sound of waves crashing …….

Yes – it was like being in heaven.

Kyle coming down to the beach house for three days made it even more special.   My best friend since 7th grade, it is hard to describe how much I love her and how close I feel to her.  Sharing her daughter’s wedding…..   sharing time at the beach…..

Yes – it was like being in heaven.

Spending time with Regina, Vince and Kuma (their beautiful Akita who passed away just a few days ago) was also very, very special.  Seeing old pictures she has, learning about my Dad being on one of the first Regis Philbin TV shows talking about being a single father raising children – was an amazing revelation.  I’d love to somehow get a transcript of that show.  My sister is a beautiful soul and her beauty is reflected in how she has lovingly decorated her beautiful home.

Yes – it was like being in heaven.

Spending time with Pat (Mark’s mom) was deeply moving.  At 78, she’s still the wonderful, loving mom I never had.  Spending time with her, sharing pictures and thoughts, and then hearing her say as she walked me to my car with her arm around me – “isn’t it nice to have someone to love” – touched me in a way words can’t express.

Yes – it was like being in heaven.

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Fear or Love

Posted on October 24, 2008 by shawnnaOctober 24, 2008

“The single most important decision any of us will ever make is whether or not to believe the universe is friendly.” Albert Einstein

I posted this in July of 2007 and as I look at what is happening in the United States now, I want to update it.

This is a pivotal moment in the history of the United States. The vast majority of us are looking inside and wondering what kind of nation we are. Are we going to march forward under the guise of Christianity offered by the Republican base? A nation built on fear – right now primarily a fear of Isam it seems. Of course, the list of fears promulgated by this Republican base – as so perfectly symbolized in the nomination of Sarah Palin as John McCain’s running mate – are many. The fear of gays or fear of allowing a woman to choose what she does with her body will become their mantra-of-the-moment depending on the audience or agenda.

Fear and Love are the two primary forces. Fear is behind the behavior of killing one another, and Love is behind dying for one another. Note the extremes.

Fear is a natural response to danger that in an instant tells the mind how to anticipate and avoid potential peril or problems. This is the “fight or flight” decision typically made in the heat of the moment.

However, this natural response stems from the irrational part of the mind that knows no logic and simply responds to conditioning experienced before. People whose lives have been filled with fear often continue to be afraid long after the potential danger has been removed, making up their own, irrational, reasons.

Chronic fear is debilitating. Chronic fear weakens the body and soul and can be tied directly to addiction, heart conditions, nervous disorders, stress, depression and paranoia.

This is especially dangerous when it affects those with economic or political power as it impacts decision-making capabilities and distances people from the real consequences of their actions.

And of more importance for this consideration is the natural result of fear is to act selfishly without regard for the well-being of others.

Love is well understood as a selfless devotion to someone – a determination to do right and to encourage and care for them. By focusing our attention away from money or material goods, Love helps us live our humanity.

Barack Obama embodies Love and is the only real hope in this pivotal point in our history.

Those who have or are caught up in the Christian extremist school of thought need to pay attention. Your heart is in the right place but please, open your eyes to the truth.

Frank Schaeffer is the author of CRAZY FOR GOD-How I Grew Up As One Of The Elect, Helped Found The Religious Right, And Lived To Take All (Or Almost All) Of It Back. I haven’t read it but plan to. Here is what he has to say about Barack.

Obama Will Be One of The Greatest (and Most Loved) American Presidents
Frank Schaeffer

Great presidents are made great by horrible circumstances combined with character, temperament and intelligence. Like firemen, cops, doctors or soldiers, presidents need a crisis to shine.

Obama is one of the most intelligent presidential aspirants to ever step forward in American history. The likes of his intellectual capabilities have not been surpassed in public life since the Founding Fathers put pen to paper. His personal character is also solid gold. Take heart, America: we have the leader for our times.

I say this as a white, former life-long Republican. I say this as the proud father of a Marine. I say this as just another American watching his pension evaporate along with the stock market! I speak as someone who knows it’s time to forget party loyalty, ideology and pride and put the country first. I say this as someone happy to be called a fool for going out on a limb and declaring that, 1) Obama will win, and 2) he is going to be amongst the greatest of American presidents.

Obama is our last best chance. He’s worth laying it all on the line for.

This is a man who in the age of greed took the high road of community service. This is the good father and husband. This is the humble servant. This is the patient teacher. This is the scholar statesman. This is the man of deep Christian faith.

Good stories about Obama abound; from his personal relationship with his Secret Service agents (he invites them into his home to watch sports, and shoots hoops with them) to the story about how, more than twenty years ago, while standing in the check-in line at an airport, Obama paid a $100 baggage surcharge for a stranger who was broke and stuck. (Obama was virtually penniless himself in those days.) Years later after he became a senator, that stranger recognized Obama’s picture and wrote to him to thank him. She received a kindly note back from the senator. (The story only surfaced because the person, who lives in Norway, told a local newspaper after Obama ran for the presidency. The paper published a photograph of this lady proudly displaying Senator Obama’s letter.)

Where many leaders are two-faced; publicly kindly but privately feared and/or hated by people closest to them, Obama is consistent in the way he treats people, consistently kind and personally humble. He lives by the code that those who lead must serve. He believes that. He lives it. He lived it long before he was in the public eye.

Obama puts service ahead of ideology. He also knows that to win politically you need to be tough. He can be. He has been. This is a man who does what works, rather than scoring ideological points. In other words he is the quintessential non-ideological pragmatic American. He will (thank God!) disappoint ideologues and purists of the left and the right.

Obama has a reservoir of personal physical courage that is unmatched in presidential history. Why unmatched? Because as the first black contender for the presidency who will win, Obama, and all the rest of us, know that he is in great physical danger from the seemingly unlimited reserve of unhinged racial hatred, and just plain unhinged ignorant hatred, that swirls in the bowels of our wounded and sinful country. By stepping forward to lead, Obama has literally put his life on the line for all of us in a way no white candidate ever has had to do. (And we all know how dangerous the presidency has been even for white presidents.)

Nice stories or even unparalleled courage isn’t the only point. The greater point about Obama is that the midst of our worldwide financial meltdown, an expanding (and losing) war in Afghanistan, trying to extricate our country from a wrong and stupidly mistaken ruinously expensive war in Iraq, our mounting and crushing national debt, awaiting the next (and inevitable) al Qaeda attack on our homeland, watching our schools decline to Third World levels of incompetence, facing a general loss of confidence in the government that has been exacerbated by the Republicans doing all they can to undermine our government’s capabilities and programs… President Obama will take on the leadership of our country at a make or break time of historic proportions. He faces not one but dozens of crisis, each big enough to define any presidency in better times.

As luck, fate or divine grace would have it (depending on one’s personal theology) Obama is blessedly, dare I say uniquely, well-suited to our dire circumstances. Obama is a person with hands-on community service experience, deep connections to top economic advisers from the renowned University of Chicago where he taught law, and a middle-class background that gives him an abiding knowledgeable empathy with the rest of us. As the son of a single mother, who has worked his way up with merit and brains, recipient of top-notch academic scholarships, the peer-selected editor of the Harvard Law Review and, in three giant political steps to state office, national office and now the presidency, Obama clearly has the wit and drive to lead.

Obama is the sober voice of reason at a time of unreason. He is the fellow keeping his head while all around him are panicking. He is the healing presence at a time of national division and strife. He is also new enough to the political process so that he doesn’t suffer from the terminally jaded cynicism, the seen-it-all-before syndrome afflicting most politicians in Washington. In that regard we Americans lucked out. It’s as if having despaired of our political process we picked a name from the phone book to lead us and that person turned out to be a very man we needed.

Obama brings a healing and uplifting spiritual quality to our politics at the very time when our worst enemy is fear. For eight years we’ve been ruled by a stunted fear-filled mediocrity of a little liar who has expanded his power on the basis of creating fear in others. Fearless Obama is the cure. He speaks a litany of hope rather than a litany of terror.

As we have watched Obama respond in a quiet reasoned manner to crisis after crisis, in both the way he has responded after being attacked and lied about in the 2008 campaign season, to his reasoned response to our multiplying national crises, what we see is the spirit of a trusted family doctor with a great bedside manner. Obama is perfectly suited to hold our hand and lead us through some very tough times. The word panic is not in the Obama dictionary.

America is fighting its “Armageddon” in one fearful heart at a time. A brilliant leader with the mild manner of an old-time matter-of-fact country doctor soothing a frightened child is just what we need. The fact that our “doctor” is a black man leading a hitherto white-ruled nation out of the mess of its own making is all the sweeter and raises the Obama story to that of moral allegory.
Obama brings a moral clarity to his leadership reserved for those who have had to work for everything they’ve gotten and had to do twice as well as the person standing next to them because of the color of their skin. His experience of succeeding in spite of his color, social background and prejudice could have been embittering or one that fostered a spiritual rebirth of forgiveness and enlightenment. Obama radiates the calm inner peace of the spirit of forgiveness.
Speaking as a believing Christian I see the hand of a merciful God in Obama’s candidacy. The biblical metaphors abound. The stone the builder rejected is become the cornerstone… the last shall be first… he that would gain his life must first lose it… the meek shall inherit the earth…
For my secular friends I’ll allow that we may have just been extraordinarily lucky! Either way America wins.

Only a brilliant man, with the spirit of a preacher and the humble heart of a kindly family doctor can lead us now. We are afraid, out of ideas, and worst of all out of hope. Obama is the cure. And we Americans have it in us to rise to the occasion. We will. We’re about to enter one of the most frightening periods of American history. Our country has rarely faced more uncertainty. This is the time for greatness. We have a great leader. We must be a great people backing him, fighting for him, sacrificing for a cause greater than ourselves.

A hundred years from now Obama’s portrait will be placed next to that of George Washington, Abraham Lincoln and Franklin Roosevelt. Long before that we’ll be telling our children and grandchildren that we stepped out in faith and voted for a young black man who stood up and led our country back from the brink of an abyss. We’ll tell them about the power of love, faith and hope. We’ll tell them about the power of creativity combined with humility and intellectual brilliance. We’ll tell them that President Obama gave us the gift of regaining our faith in our country. We’ll tell them that we all stood up and pitched in and won the day. We’ll tell them that President Obama restored our standing in the world. We’ll tell them that by the time he left office our schools were on the mend, our economy booming, that we’d become a nation filled with green energy alternatives and were leading the world away from dependence on carbon-based destruction. We’ll tell them that because of President Obama’s example and leadership the integrity of the family was restored, divorce rates went down, more fathers took responsibility for their children, and abortion rates fell dramatically as women, families and children were cared for through compassionate social programs that worked. We’ll tell them about how the gap closed between the middle class and the super rich, how we won health care for all, how crime rates fell, how bad wars were brought to an honorable conclusion. We’ll tell them that when we were attacked again by al Qaeda, how reason prevailed and the response was smart, tough, measured and effective, and our civil rights were protected even in times of crisis…
We’ll tell them that we were part of the inexplicably blessed miracle that happened to our country those many years ago in 2008 when a young black man was sent by God, fate or luck to save our country. We’ll tell them that it’s good to live in America where anything is possible. Yes we will.

Awareness of which primary driving force is underlying our choices – in any given moment – is the key to consciously living. For it is only with that awareness you can choose to change which primary force drives your choice as an individual, or as a nation; fear or love.

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The Shift is happening NOW! Be part of it by electing Barack Obama!

Posted on October 23, 2008 by shawnnaOctober 23, 2008

I know I’ve posted about this before but I am trembling inside as I see Love working so intensely and deeply.

The current financial meltdown – of the entire world – is nothing short of a breaking down of old systems.

The chasm created by a religious movement that had so much potential – think Sarah Palin and extreme Christian fundamentalism – is destroying our country from within.

Imagine that Sarah, you and your Christian extremists playing the part of Evil in this drama.

Yes indeed – there is a Shift – and it is playing out like I could never have imagined.

Who would have thought a black man of humble beginnings would be the hope of America by rising above the din of the hate-filled Republican ‘base’ of Christian extremists.

God has such a wonderful sense of humor.

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Lesson relearned – actions speak louder than words

Posted on October 15, 2008 by shawnnaOctober 15, 2008

I’ve relearned this one…… for the umpteenth time. What people say – or write on a website – is usually how they want others to see them (or how they want to see themselves). And yes – this applies to me too.

More on that in a separate post.

If in the course of events their actions reflect someone quite different, run as fast as you can the other way.

I just ran….. again…..

There was a time when I would try and help this individual see the obvious disconnect between their actions and their written word but I’ve also learned that beating my head against a wall actually hurts.

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Sarah Palin, the post turtle

Posted on October 9, 2008 by shawnnaOctober 9, 2008

Circulating widely on the internet is this PERFECT story I am compelled to share.

While suturing a cut on the hand of a 75-year old Texas rancher, whose hand was caught in a gate while working with cattle, the doctor struck up a conversation with the old man. Eventually the topic got around to Sarah Palin and her bid to be a heartbeat away from being President. The old rancher said, “Well, ya know, Palin is a post turtle.”

Not being familiar with the term, the doctor asked him what a post turtle was.

The old rancher said, “When you’re driving down a country road, and you come across a fence post with a turtle balanced on top, that’s a post turtle.”

The old rancher saw a puzzled look on the doctor’s face, so he continued to explain. “You know she didn’t get up there by herself, she doesn’t belong up there, she doesn’t know what to do while she is up there, and you just wonder what kind of dumb ass put her up there to begin with.”

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Understanding what's happening

Posted on October 4, 2008 by shawnnaOctober 4, 2008

Having spent the last week reconnecting my soul to the Source, spending days at the beach with Kyle (my best friend) and visiting with my former in-laws, I have so much to write about. I’ll get to that though.

Right now there’s nothing more important to me than understanding what’s happening in our financial markets. That will come as a surprise to those who know me – I’ve never been one who worries too much about money – it’s so temporal. But what is happening right now must be understood. That is why I’m holding off posting my insights from vacation for the time being.

Please – if you care about this country – take the time to learn what is going on. It is so very important….

Last night while driving home from Los Angeles, I heard an interview with the WAMU CFO who predicted the collapse. It was surreal hearing him say what I had been wondering about for quite a while when house prices were sky rocketing.

As usual, NPR (National Public Radio) has done an outstanding job explaining what is going on in the financial markets. Please take the time to understand all of this – it’s so vital we educate ourselves.

Knowledge is power.

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Matthew Hickney – making a difference

Posted on September 11, 2008 by shawnnaMarch 11, 2012

This is my son.

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Matthew Hickney – Film Maker (and my son!)

Posted on June 22, 2008 by shawnnaMarch 11, 2012

Matt is my first born. He is also a man like no other (and I am not saying that because he is my son).

Clip from Walking to the Cage from Matthew Hickney on Vimeo.

Josh Calvos first fight

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A quiet, peaceful birthday today

Posted on May 24, 2008 by shawnnaMay 24, 2008

This was written yesterday – May 23rd – but I forgot to hit ‘publish’.

After a couple of weeks of significant work drama, and recent pain-flled days and nights, it was nice to have a very quiet, peaceful birthday today.

I am so richly blessed. I have two sons who are both incredible young men. I have a beautiful home and many, many luxuries most in the world only dream of.

I am very conscious of Life and the Lessons we are given.

I am deeply grateful for everything and welcome a new year of learning opportunities!

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